Summer 2006

Well... it's definitely been awhile. It's hard to find time to do the things I want to do since I work so much. But, tonight, this beautiful Friday night I have nothing to do. So... I thought since 3 had been back at work on his blog, I might as well give everyone an update as well.

Summer has absolutely flown by. I can hardly believe it's August already. I can't say as tho I haven't had my share of fun this summer because I have, but I am ready to get back to school. I miss my friends, I miss the life, I miss the atmosphere, and I actually miss class. I think I have the terminal schooling gene that Sara K-B Toys has. I love to learn and as much as I bitch about going to class, I actually enjoy it. I've spent most of my time with Steven and DeHamer. They are my "men" as they would like to be called. I've become one of the boys this summer and have had the pleasure of them treating me just so. It's been nice tho... at least I have people here I can rely on and have fun with. I've spent some time with the Wife as well. She's been hanging out with the three of us randomly. I've also taken on a new friend. I've been having coffee with Bryan, a friend who is transferring from U Iowa to Wartburg this year. If I had a year I'd explain how we know each other but I don't so let's just say we met thru my psycho neighbor at school.

This summer, for me, has been a lot about figuring out what I did at school last year and who I became. I think I did some things last year that I don't necesarily want to repeat this year. I know I've also grown a lot this summer as a person. I've re-prioritized and I've been thinking a lot about what I want to accomplish this year. I've thought a lot about my friends at school and who I do and do not want to spend a lot of time with. I think I'm starting over in a way. I'm living with 6 other girls only 1 of which I know well. I'm excited, nervous, scared, and ready. Last year I just didn't know what I wanted. I think after this summer, and some very long and deep conversations with Steven, I've got a better idea.

At the beginning of the summer Steven asked me to go to a church service called Immersion at the Lutheran Church of Hope out in WDM. It is more of a youth based service with music, a message, and communion. I didn't really know what to think and I didn't really know what to do. I knew that I'd never really been to church with a lot of other people before and I know that I hadn't ever been to a service like this before. I went the first night and was scared shitless. The first night I went because I was asked and I knew it was important to Steven and D. The second, third, fourth nights etc. I went because I wanted to. I look forward to Thursday nights because it is a time where I can be me. I can go and know that I'm being forgiven for everything I've done wrong in the last week. I also like the connection I have with Steven and D now that we've begun to share the faith in our lives. I know some of you are thinking that this is way too churchy and that I'm going to turn into a "bible thumper" but I assure you this is all about discovering where and with whom my faith lies. What it means to me and what it means to other people as I begin to open that part of my life and let others in. It's been a big step in my life and I know I wouldn't have been able to do it without the help of D and especially Steven. He is there every day telling me that even if I hate myself and others hate me, God doesn't. God doesn't judge, he doesn't care how bad I screw up, he believes in me when no one else does, he respects me for the decisions I've made and continue to make and most importantly he loves me for who I am not for what I do. I was raised a Catholic, and while my values and beliefs stem from my upbringing, I think that I have a lot of discovering to do. I know I don't believe everything my church tells me. And I know I don't have to pray everynight and go to church every Sunday to be a good Christian. I'm working on it and as long as I remember where I came from and what I believe, my life will be good. That's a long way of saying my faith has grown tremendously and is mostly thanks to Steven. Thank you.

On a less religious note work is starting to wear me out. I'm tired of it. This summer just isn't the same. It isn't at all like it was last summer. I'm not getting the hours and things have changed a lot. David and I have actually become pretty good friends. We've been playing golf usually about once a week. That is way more golf than I played last summer. I have 2 and a half weeks left now. I move in on the 27th to do Orientation boot camp and then school starts the Tuesday after labor day. Sweet! I'm excited!

Like 3 and Sara we also received a new kittne. Spiderman Spiderman! He's super cute! Him and Neuman have been playing a lot. They are funny together. Neuman is actually nicer now. We are starting to think we should have gotten another cat a lot sooner!

Well... hopefully this is the beginning of regular posting. Hopefully I'll keep you more updated when I get back to school. Moreso than last year anyway!

Have a fantastic weekend!

the bloned