Ur Mom! ... it was what I was thinking!

Hidy ho! Another week another blog. I feel collegiate now that I have returned from Orientation up at Wartburg. Everytime I am there I love the campus. Of course for orientation they kept us in the nice, upperclassmen dorms equipped with A/C. Next year I wont be so lucky. Anywho, a two day spree of meet and greet wore me out! So I am now sitting down to tell you of my dry trip to Waverly.

Sunday started out like anyother morning minus the fact that I got up at 8:00 and took a shower as opposed to getting up at 7:30 and going to work. Mom and I packed and got ready and then we were off. And being that they just put in a new Starbucks up the street, a carmel latte was in order. Made with skim milk of course. Since I have become somewhat of a connoisseur of expensive coffee drinks, I have also found that it is healthier for me to order my drinks made with skim milk. However, sometimes I get the drink made with skim milk and still put whipped cream on top. You might be thinking that adding the whip to a skinny drink pretty much cancels the skinny part, I think of it as it is better for me to get the skinny drink with whip rather than get the fat drink with whip. Therefore, it is just like getting the fat drink when I get skinny with whip. That doesn't make much sense, but I understand.

Upon arriving at Wartburg we signed in and got my room assignment for the weekend. No, I still don't know who I will be living with next year. I wont know that til mid-July, early August. URGH! Then they sat us in the Lyceum, which looked like an auditorium to me Bob, but at college they use the big words. For those interested the proper definition of a Lyceum is, "A hall in which public lectures, concerts, and similar programs are presented." Like I said, it was an auditorium. In the words of Mrs. White the crazy choir director, it was an "aud." So, boring presentations, a lesson on security in which I learned that college kids get locked out of their dorm rooms quite frequently. The guy said they unlocked close to 900 or so doors last year. The lyceum was roaring with laughter after that statistic. Speaking of statistics, I have to take stat in the winter term next year! I hate math, but taking calc last fall got me out of having to take it this fall and it is a required class for a business major. So yay! My english class didn't get me out of freshman english tho so I have to take that this fall. Owell, hopefully it will be like the class I already took.

I'm sort of sick of summer already. I've been pretty alone despite having long heart-to-hearts with Michael and Ashley. They still pretty much avoid me. I don't know why, and I don't understand, and maybe if I did, it wouldn't hurt as much. Somehow I don't think I will ever know. I don't think Ashley reads this anymore, maybe if she did she would understand how I feel. I've sort of been censoring the blog because of the fact that she reads it. Owell, Saturday I had some people over to bar-b-que while the parents were at a party of their own. I invited a bunch of people, I didn't really care who was there but I wasn't going to invite everyone. I didn't call Michael. I figured he would hear it through the grape-vine and show up anyway so it didn't matter. I don't owe him a personal invite. He hasn't done anything for me in the last two months. Anyway, I called Ashley and get nothing. She called me back while I was in the shower and her message said that she really wanted to do something with me that night. I called her back and told her the plan, she didn't get off work til 9:00 so she would be late. Fine, whatever.

Upon arrival here, she talked a little and then her and Michael and Mitch and Annie were outside together. I said something to Steven about the couples being on the deck and he said he was going to go break it up. Well, Mitch and Annie came in and Michael and Ashley proceeded to stay outside and chat while the rest of us played inside. She said all of 10 words to me that night.... So much for wanting to hang out with me I guess. Then I called her on Monday to find out what was up with her and to tell her about my orientation. We talked a little for about 20 minutes and then she hung up with me because she needed to find out what her cat was doing on the stairs. To me that seems like a pretty weak way to say you don't want to talk to someone anymore. People ask me what she is doing or what she is up to or anything else about her and I tell them to ask Michael. He seems to be the only one she talks to now so I really don't know what is going on. I should call him to find out what is going on with her...

Currently I am talking with Sara over AIM. Yes, I have resorted to AOL Instant Messaging because I have no life and it is the only form of entertainment to me. She asked me if I was still mad at her. Steffi told her about my little party and she asked why she wasn't invited. I told her, and it was truly legit, but then there was the part of me that didn't really want to see her that night. I knew if Michael was there she would be all over him. And with Ashley there, there just would be too much for me to handle. She went to Indianola that night to jump Brandon anyway so I guess no big deal. It was mostly choir kids anyway and she doesn't really hang out with them. Besides Michael now I guess.

I had called Steffi because I was flipping through the contact list in my phone and an impulse just told me to call her. I haven't talked to her in a while and we haven't hung out in forever so I just called her. I called Erin and Alicia too and I guess I could have called Sara but it just wasn't right. I know that by not inviting her I did a bad thing. My mom told me to call her. I just didn't want to. She is my friend, even though I don't agree with what she does, but it feels wrong to be with her. It feels like she put herself in the middle of Michael and Ashley and she is the reason neither of them can talk to me now. She told Ashley was had happened and that made it hard for Ashley, my best friend, to look me in the face. So I guess I want to blame her for what happened even though all three took part in the way I was treated. And I do blame all three for the roles they played in what happened, but she seems to be the cause of it all. I don't know. I have been avoiding all three of them, and they have been avoiding me. It is going to be a long summer.... I just hope things will change soon, for all of us!

For now, you can find me at the golf course Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday afternoons and at HyVee the other days. And this fall I have class on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays, so call me on Tuesday and Thursday! Until we meet again.....